Blog Update

New blog domain, new me.

So I’ve finally got my act together and paid £1 to get my name registered as a domain for my blog. I know, guys, I’ve finally made it.

It was one of my New Year’s resolutions to blog more, get a domain that wasn’t .wordpress, and generally write more stuff. Whether that is blog posting (probably best to, given my substantial financial investment into it, now), review writing for Miro Magazine (cheap plug), or work experience and freelance (getting there).

So yeah, now I’m here and doing my first update in almost a year. Holy cow.

If you are a humble traveller and do not know me, or you do know me and ignore everything I say and do (I don’t blame you), then here’s a quick recap.

I’m now an MA Journalism student at the University of Sheffield, finally studying and going into the career that I’ve wanted since I was a lil young’un. I moved here in September, and I’m very much enjoying the whole experience (give or take minor shorthand-related breakdowns).

One main thing is that I’m waiting to hear back about an internship over the summer at Bloomberg, which will either be a happy or sad blog post sometime next week. It’s both exciting and terrifying thinking about careers already, but I guess it’s inevitable, given how quickly this academic year is progressing.

I am going to make sure I do not neglect this blog, and hopefully keep people posted with how I’m doing, any opinion/news pieces I fancy writing that nobody else will pay me for, and whatever else I fancy.

Talk soon, etc.

Blog Update

Let’s get this show back on the road.

So… it’s been a while. 

A long while, to be honest.

I have had a bit of an up and down year since my last post. But I won’t get into that.

Writing, yes, that thing. I have started bringing myself back into performing poetry again. I was asked to be a part of Anerki at The Font in Leicester when I was down there for UniSlam. It was my first poetry performance in over 18 months, and you could tell. I was a bit all over the place and out of rhythm. I felt like I disappointed after being asked to perform. But they were absolutely lovely and was a great environment, so hopefully I’ll be asked back in the future (and I can do a better effort).

It wasn’t awful, by any means, but it’s hard when you’re a writer and performer and you put in a bad performance. But, if anything, it inspired me to keep going to spoken word nights and writing, and, thankfully, I have finally gotten round to visiting a local spoken word, poetry, and music night in Carlisle. It’s called Speakeasy and I got introduced to it by Nick Pemberton, who runs the night and the poetry breakfast at the Carlisle Borderlines Festival. It’s at a lovely café called Foxes, and it was a great, relaxing night.

It’s on monthly, and I absolutely loved it. I was a lot stronger and only performed a couple of poems that time. I stuck to older work over new ones, so I could build up confidence and get back on track. I intend to go back with others and rework poems, and get back into performing properly. Watch this space.

I’m going to get back into this, too. It’s been too long and blogging is always fun. So feel free to ask me questions, give me ideas for my blog, or just keep in touch.

That is all for now, see you guys soon.

Corey x

Guest Submission, Writing Content

Guest Writer – Memoir Short Story

A dear friend got in touch with me about a short, autobiographical story that they had written, and asked me to edit and publish it anonymously. I hope you appreciate the story they tell as much as I did. – Corey


I think it’s basically agreed upon that the summer (or at least a few months) after your first boyfriend will be some of the grimmest you’ll deal with. Most dwell on the relationship, drink a little too much, and partake in an ill-advised flirtation before crying… a lot; If you were dumped, anyway. This feeling of rejection is seconded only by the alien feel of separated parents – something I was a little more used to than most, with mine continuing an on again, off again pattern, but that didn’t mean it didn’t hurt. I got unlucky: I got both at once.

I also spent an afternoon in a park with a crying friend, the afternoon the Olympics came to London, the fallout of which has shaped every part of my life for the following four years, and will continue to do so for the rest of my life.

Hi. I feel like I should introduce myself, but I should mention that any identifying elements (names and places) have been changed, obviously, in the hopes that the identity of those involved will be protected. If you believe you know who I am, please keep this information to yourself- and I hope you’re wrong. So, for the purposes of the story, I’ll refer to my friend as Sophie and myself as, well, I. I should also add that this story is pretty grim, and that it deals with substance abuse, mental illness, suicide, sexual assault, and rape. Consider this your trigger warning.

I had met Sophie three years earlier at secondary school. I had been bullied out of one and barely fitted into the second, but found a niche with her and another girl- she crops up later, so I’ll call her Matilda[1]. We were about as far from popular as it was possible to be, but we were ok with it. We gawked our way through school and when we finished our GCSEs, we split up and went to different colleges. It was sad leaving them, but we were there for each other through strange patches and stayed in touch. I, like many girls, found a boy, fell in love and when the relationship ended so did the first year of college. Sophie, Matilda, Matilda’s boyfriend and a friend of Matilda’s met up in a park one sunny afternoon- the afternoon of the Olympics.

I can’t pretend that I liked Matilda’s boyfriend- I had had a crush on her when we were at school, and looking at this smelly, toothless man left me feeling a little confused, and fairly sad. We walked about, ate ice cream and as the afternoon progressed, the others left leaving only myself and Sophie. I spoke a little about my now-ex boyfriend, and about the strangeness of losing my virginity. I knew Sophie wasn’t a virgin- she’d had a pregnancy scare before and had a strange relationship with a boy who lived on her estate. She didn’t seem to mind him, and they had sex, but she seemed utterly dispassionate about it.

This all occurred nearly four years ago, so I’m going off what I had said in a police report later.

We spent most of the afternoon talking, and I eventually found out that Sophie had been raped by a man who had lived near her when she’d lived in a caravan as a young child. She didn’t know exactly how young, but it was around the age of four. She also said that she knew of another girl who’d been around the same man, but had never said anything about it.

It took hours, and a lot of practising the phrasing, but I eventually convinced her to speak to the police about it. She struggled to say the word ‘rape’, and even typing it now makes my hands shake. We called an advice centre, who told us to dial 999. It wasn’t an emergency, obviously, but it turned out to be the right thing to do. We had meetings with the police the next day, if I remember correctly.

One of Sophie’s main concerns was that her family would judge her for what had happened. I tried to tell her that what had happened was in no way her fault- and to this day I have no idea if she believed me. She’d told someone else before, too, and they hadn’t believed her, something that has harmed her more than I can state. Incidentally, around 2% of rape allegations are false- so, dear reader, if a friend tells you something like this has happened to them then they are almost certainly telling the truth.

Sophie and I came to an agreement: she would tell the police everything, and she would stay at my house for as long as it was necessary. It was something I would regret.

My mum picked us up, got us food, and left the TV on in the background. I watched the ceremony continue, and felt increasingly like what was happening to me was not real. I felt like I was waiting for someone to yell ‘cut!’ so we could pack up our things and go home, and watch our characters on Eastenders, or something. I knew my life: I walked the dog, I went to work, I read a lot and that was about it. Nothing like this happened.

The next few weeks have mainly been blacked out by my memory. I know that we were interviewed by the police a lot, and in the following years they have kept my details to contact Sophie, should they need to. They took us for a final interview in a safe house in a nearby town. We’d always been together during the interviews. I was there for moral support, and at the end they would ask me if I had anything to add, or if anything had been forgotten, which I occasionally did. The final interview was different. I stood at the top of the stairs and asked Sophie if she wanted me to come in with her. She shook her head. I gave her a hug, and went downstairs. I sat on the floor- if memory serves, the room was unfurnished- and read Vogue. I have no idea how long I sat there, but it felt like years before I heard movement and everyone else reappeared. This was supposed to be our parting: Sophie was to stay with relatives and I was to return home with my mum. She looked shaken, and I know I will never understand the hell she went through. That summer remains one of the darkest periods of my life, and it is nothing compared to hers. I gave a final statement, alone, the following day and I assumed that it was – finally- over. Around a week later, Sophie returned

I know I gave her books, endlessly, in the hope they might distract her from what was happening. My mother and my sisters went to France, and Sophie and I fell into some sort of routine: I would walk the dog, go to work, miss my boyfriend and try to cope with Sophie. I can’t remember how she acted. Like I said, much of this has been pushed down. I knew that she wouldn’t be with us forever, but I felt more trapped than ever. We looked at refuge places for her when term started.

While my family was away, two things happened. The first was that we received our results for our first year at college. We both did abysmally, and I changed a lot of my courses. My mother was disappointed in me and we had a strained relationship because of that- I blamed her for my father leaving the week that I had my exams, and I think she was angry at me for not doing better. When I left for university, I think my family breathed a sigh of relief that I was out of the way.

The second thing that happened was that I finally snapped. When walking my dog, he snapped at me and I cried for hours, sitting by a barn. I have never studied psychology, so I don’t know if I’m mistaken in saying this but I believe I had a full breakdown. I couldn’t cope any more with Sophie’s face, and when I got home I asked her if she was going to return to hers. As it turned out, she had just been on the phone with them and had planned on returning soon- I’ve never known if that was true. The next morning, she caught the bus and left.

A few months later we had a spat and made up, but I think that there was a lot of depth to it that we’ve never discussed. We’ve never really spoken about that time- Sophie is like her family, who believe that if things are not discussed, they are not real. I kept things quiet, too, partly out of respect for her, partly because I didn’t know how to deal with them. I told a little to a close friend who I knew from college, and therefore had no idea who she was, but otherwise I was silent.

I was busy, too- I studied a lot, but I also had a frantic social life with a new group of friends. I got a boyfriend, dumped him, got a girlfriend, and dumped her after infidelity. They dated. We drank too much, we fucked each other and we tried pot. We were social justice warriors, notorious for picking fights if people made jokes about our sexualities, about mental health, about rape. They don’t know about my experiences, and truthfully I was still very alone. I just hoped enough noise would cover it up.

At some point, Sophie dropped out of college. I wasn’t surprised, to be honest, but she hid it from me and it was only because Matilda jokingly dropped her in it that I found out. Increasingly, we had little contact. I set her up with a friend of mine, and they were together for a while. I don’t know how or when that relationship ended, I just know that it did.

The summer of 2013 was actually as bad, in some ways. I was sexually assaulted by a man I worked with and my parents reunited- I felt like my father left because he didn’t like me, an opinion shared by my sister- and I hadn’t spoken to him since. I had a petty fight with my mother, ran out of the house and lived with my friend. We spent a lot of time with the guy I was seeing and her boyfriend. I was wrapped up enough in my own life that I had no room for Sophie, and I was afraid of what would happen should she return to it. I also had to cope with my own assault, which I did with copious amounts of pot and panic attacks. Nearly three years later, I still get scared. I never told the police what happened, and I felt like a hypocrite.

Surprisingly, I got into a university and went from living a few towns away from Sophie to living across the country. I didn’t want to return- I spent the holidays with my boyfriend, although I spoke to my mother more fondly now I was away. Sophie and I spoke occasionally, awkwardly.

By the time I entered my second year of uni, I thought I was actually doing ok. I had a few, close friends- how I liked it- and I enjoyed my course. I had a few moments of incredulous self-doubt, but put them down to PMS. I spent my time drinking or hanging out with people. I read. I had heard of second year blues, but I wasn’t overly concerned.

One afternoon I received a phone call from Sophie. I have no idea what triggered it, still, but she’d taken an overdose in, presumably, a suicide attempt. You don’t really ask why someone deliberately does something like that. I’d known for years she’d self-harmed but it seemed like she’d put that behind her, although with long sleeves and evasive answers it’s hard to know for sure. I told her to call an ambulance, and she was discharged from hospital later that day.

I was in a darker place than I had ever been, and I called her nightly to try to make her take anti-depressants and visit the doctor. She read out the list of side effects and I told her that the doctors knew what was the right thing to do. Writing now has shown me how completely I trust authority figures, but through these experiences they’ve seemed to do surprisingly well.

This continued for around a month. I never bothered saving her number- I rang her home number, because she constantly lost mobile phones and we spoke so often that she was never more than my second most recent call. She called me often, too. It transpired that her friends at college used drugs, heavily, and whilst I’d smoke a fair amount of weed, I was way out of my depth with this. She called me- and the police- because she could hear screaming in her room, a screaming that only she could hear. I told her that someone else could help, but she wasn’t convinced and fully believed that the voice was real. I believe the term is ‘drug-induced psychosis’, but, again, I’m not a psychologist. She stopped taking them, but when I briefly visited her she took a vindictive pleasure in telling me she wanted to use them again.

This was my first real bout of depression, and I started seeing a therapist. Two other things happened: my boyfriend dumped me, probably partially because of how much the stress affected me; and I got drunk. I lay on my bed, and caught hold of a necklace around my throat. I twisted it until I passed out, and the chain snapped. At least, I think that’s what happened. I stared into nothingness, always. I stopped eating- I have a clear memory of vomiting bile onto the side of one of the university’s buildings- and cried over my disgusting body. I never had anorexia, I simply had no desire to do anything, least of all eat.

Time jumbles again. At some point I realised, enough, that calling Sophie was destroying me. I tried to wean myself off, so she could find someone else- Matilda never occurred to me, and aside from that there was nobody. It didn’t work, and I went a fortnight without calling her. It was something I couldn’t face. I spoke to a friend about it recently, and the best way I could describe it was this: Sophie was Schrödinger’s cat, and I was whoever had to look in the box, but every time I looked in the box the cat was dead. She wasn’t actually dead, but I never heard her say anything that made me feel positive. When we spoke in the evening, she’d discuss the paper. She’d take all day to read it and dissect it, and I think sometimes she liked that I didn’t know or understand a subject that had been the focus of the day. I think there would be many reasons that she would be jealous of me- she doesn’t know I was assaulted too, although her experience was undeniably worse- but I think it grated on her that I had got away, got an education whilst she was stuck with unemployment in a horrible council flat with no way out.

After my boyfriend and I broke up I spent a week sleeping and counting hours. I knew that time was supposed to help, so I spent as much of it as possible unconscious. I slept for at least twelve hours a day, and the rest watching TV- failing any human company, I chose the arms of Morpheus. But they don’t tell you that no amount of sleep will make you less tired of life. I couldn’t stand to be in my own mind, and when the films and TV shows paused for adverts I got agitated enough that it annoyed the people I lived with. I couldn’t cope with anything.

So time blurs again and all I know is that by the end of November I was spending a lot of money on nights out. I had finished therapy and wasn’t told I needed more: I was diagnosed as ‘moderately depressed’, whatever that means, and the sessions had focused on my commitment to my course and plans for the future, which was perhaps what I needed. I left each week feeling like I had had an operation:  something inside me had been fixed, but in doing so had created a separate injury, but a good one, that would heal.  I was lucky- I never got an infection.

I went out, and kissed strange boys. It wasn’t that I was addicted to alcohol, although it may have appeared otherwise. The truth was I was terrified of being alone. Yet from my party days I made no real friendships, and I don’t think any meaningful relationship or relief from solidarity has ever come from a few moments grinding in a club, let alone waking up next to someone whose name you can’t recall.

I had friends, but no true confidants.

I want to stop writing, I’m exhausted.

At some point, Sophie moved in with some different relatives and got a job- it was nothing interesting, but I think it helped her immeasurably. Sophie, Matilda and I met up in February, and I stayed at her place. It seemed ok, and she seemed alright but I worried about how much she drank and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t keen to leave.

The spring of 2015 raced by, and I left the country. There was nothing for me to return to with my parents, and I craved an adventure of the more exploratory type. I had days of horrible, horrible depression and my panic attacks returned, but mostly I read, swam, worked and drank. My ex-boyfriend, whom I’d started seeing before I left, visited, but apart from that I saw nobody I’d ever met before. I stopped using my phone and social media. I did ok.

The next noteworthy thing happened in a station on January 12th, 2016. I’d spent the winter holidays abroad, with my phone switched off and instructions to anyone who I thought might call me to message me over Facebook instead. Turns out, I hadn’t thought of everyone.

I caught a plane and had taken some vallium (prescribed) for my fear of heights, and it was wearing off as I landed. I’d had to leave someone behind who I never wanted to let go of, and honestly, even without accounting for the jet-lag, I was a mess. The voicemail icon flashed off on my phone, and I assumed it was someone butt-dialling me. Instead, I was informed that the case against the man who raped my friend was going to court. I went a little cold when I heard the name- coincidentally, it was the same as the man who assaulted me. I found out later that the police had written to me, but used my parents address so I never received the letter. As I hadn’t answered their attempts to get in contact, they visited my parents’ house to try and locate me. I spoke to the officer, who asked me if I’d appear as a witness. I don’t know if I paused. ‘I’ll do it,’ I told her. There was no way I could get out of it, especially if I wanted to live with myself.

When I got home, I tried to message Sophie. It turns out you should save somebody’s phone number, each of them- I have a contact list full of numbers but none of them worked. I knew that her home one would be the only one to work, but I had no way of locating it. I sent her a message over Facebook, and heard nothing. I sent another, a few days later, and again heard nothing. Gradually, my messages got angrier. I couldn’t sleep for worrying about her, and neither me nor Matilda nor anyone else I could think to contact had heard from her. It killed me.

It took weeks, but eventually I got a reply from her. It was painfully apologetic and not reassuring in the least to read. She was alive, I supposed. Meanwhile my mother had taken to calling me slightly more frequently than normal, and ‘warning’ me about what would happen in court. I snapped, and told her not to call me until it was all over. I got the occasional text, which I ignored. I heard nothing more from Sophie and put the matter out of my mind. I was told that the trial was supposed to run at the end of March, and time flew by in the way it can only when you are dreading something. I was told I would be called close to the time and informed of when I would be needed. At one point, I spent a fruitless afternoon trying to get in contact with whoever was in charge of the case, so I could ask them if Sophie was ok and if they knew of her past mental struggles.

At some point in the run up, I received a call from Sophie. I happened to be with a friend at the time, and spent the phone call clutching him. She joked about girls we’d been to school with, and satirised politicians- she had me in stitches. And then it switched, and she told me she’d been declared unfit for work- something which I had assumed was impossible in tory Britain- and had been referred to a day hospital. It sounded as though she was lucky- she’d only been on the waiting list for a psychologist for nine months, and she had a doctor who believed she should be hospital. And then, click! Back to the jokes, the reminiscing, the chat. I didn’t sleep that night.

Which brings us to last week. The day before I was due in court I went shopping for something to wear. I tried to deal with the situation with humour, and joked weakly with friends about saluting the judge nervously. Secretly, I thought about making impassioned speeches to the jury that would swing the case and put him in jail forever. I put on my nicest jeans and shoes, and bought a white shirt. I don’t think I’ve ever spent so long looking in the mirror, and trying to work out if I would be believable. I looked hungry. I looked tired. But mostly, I looked scared.

The day came and I headed across the country to get to court in time. A delayed train would normally stress me, but I don’t think I could have been any more than I already was. My legs felt funny, like my clothes were too tight. I don’t know if you’ve ever spent a prolonged period of time in shorts and then had to transition back to skinny jeans, but the way they cling to you feels totally alien. I had a book with me which appeared innocent and suddenly transitioned to a description of civil war in Africa, where a man watches his dying sisters being raped by soldiers. I felt angry- how could someone use this for a plot device? I wanted to scream at the whole world.

Thanks to the delay, I caught a taxi five minutes before I was supposed to arrive at court. My phone buzzed- at some point Sophie had acquired a mobile- and she told me that our testimonies had been cancelled. I hadn’t been informed of anything officially, so I went to the courthouse anyway.

The waiting room was uncomfortably hot, and nobody seemed to know what was going on. A woman made conversation with me about university and I wondered if she’d been trained to calm people down.

The prosecutor came down with the police officer who had been in charge of the case. They told me that yes, I wouldn’t be required today. I told them I’d return in the morning, but they seemed concerned about my journey. After everything, it seemed utterly trivial. They seemed nice, and told me that I’d only be needed if the defence wanted to cross examine me. They gave me my statement to look over- they’d spelt both my and Sophie’s names incorrectly, I noted- and I was shocked at how incoherent I had been. The prosecutor returned to the courtroom, and I asked the officer how Sophie was. ‘I want to hug her every time I see her, and tell her everything’s going to be ok’, she said. I knew that. Everyone feels like that about Sophie. ‘Often, after a conviction, the life of a survivor improves.’ I could believe that- I’d had a split second, the day before, where I truly believed if he was found guilty I could do anything. It faded, instantly, but if I could bottle that feeling and give it to Sophie forever, I would, at any cost.

I went home, and received a call. I wouldn’t be needed- the defence wasn’t going to question my statement, so I was off the hook. I leant back, a little.

The following evening I called Sophie. She had given her evidence via video and only had to appear to answer questions on it. I have no idea what happened, but I’m assuming it went terribly. She’d always been a terrible public speaker, but I didn’t think it was going to get to her like this. She wailed- and that’s not exaggerating- down the phone for almost an hour. I spent a lot of time telling her to breathe, and asking her to stop apologising. She made hints that she wanted it all to be over, and I wasn’t sure how far she’d go to make that happen. I messaged Matilda and asked if she could be with her, but Matilda had since moved away and had no more way of getting to her than I did. It turned out she had been drinking, heavily. I hung up, eventually, and dialled 111 and asked them to get a professional to speak to her. I tried to call her again to check, but the line was busy.

The next day I received a text from her about something I’d asked the day before. She made no mention of the previous night’s events, and I replied asking her what had happened. She had no recollection of speaking to me. She called me, and I got angry. The call lasted only a minute or two, but I swore a lot and I haven’t heard from her since. I don’t know if there’s anything left of a friendship to salvage, and I don’t know if I want to try. It’s become a responsibility, and one that has driven me madder than I ever knew I could be driven.

A lot of people- the barrister and the police; my family and my friends- have praised me for being with her, for bravery and loyalty. I mainly feel unworthy- I have stumbled too many times, and walked away. Perhaps at times I have done the right thing, and I’m glad that she was heard, but it has all come at an enormous cost.

Sophie’s attacker was found guilty of her rape, and of other counts. He was sentenced to seven years on top of what he was already serving, and is due to be released when he is 108.

Sophie and Matilda were supposed to meet today. I don’t know if they have. I don’t want to be responsible for her anymore.

[1] I wanted to think of some theme for names, so I’m going with female characters in Roald Dahl for no apparent reason.


The Introduction of the National Living Wage.

In 2015, George Osborne announced in his budget that the UK were going to make sure that, by 2020, we would be on £9 an hour, well deserving of the title “the National Living Wage”.

However, despite the fact that inflation by 2020 would arguably make £9 an hour less impressive (seeing that the Living wage rose by 40p in November), there is also a catch. At the moment, the only changes are going to be for people aged 25 and over.

The justification of this by the government is that it will allow young people to “secure work and gain experience” as well as to “maximise the opportunities” available to them.

Now, this seems fine and well, apart from the fact that this is pretty much going to screw over young people AND people over 25.

Just think about it. At this moment in time, the national minimum wage is £6.70 an hour. This applies (currently) to anyone over the age of 21, with the minimum wage for 18-20 year old workers being £5.30 an hour, and a staggeringly low £3.87 for people under 18. This means that, BEFORE the changes, people over 21 are earning £2.83 an hour more than under 18s (and £1.40 more for people aged 18-20) for just being older. Say what you want about ‘gaining experience’, they are doing exactly the same work as someone who is 21+, and it’s not that fair.

From April 2016, the situation is going to be even more clouded. This is due to the government’s 2020 “living wage” plan making its first progress, boosting the wage from £6.70 an hour to £7.20 an hour for people aged 25 and over. This means that, especially people who are working in shops and other customer service industries (as well as other employment that works on a minimum wage payment), the wage gap between 17 year olds and 25 year olds is going to be an incredible £3.33 an hour. Simply for being older, 25 year olds are going to be paid almost DOUBLE the wage of someone under 18.

You might, however, argue that 16-18 year olds “don’t need the money as much as 25 year olds”, because they spend it on unimportant things like university funding, or even a car or driving lessons. Whatever arguments you say about teenage spending, there are adults that spend their wage on pretty much similar things, whether it be video games, alcohol, or trying to avoid getting £50,000+ in debt to study at university. It doesn’t mean that their work is less valuable, or that they put in less effort.

Look at 18-20 year olds, if you want another side of the argument (I’ll be getting on to my current age bracket, 21-24, soon). They are getting paid £1.90 less despite being legally classed as an adult. At that age, finding work isn’t about getting some extra pocket money, it’s either finding work to complement further education or as a full time job, and, therefore, trying to save up to move out and become independent (seeing that they legally have to pay council tax anyway).

This becomes even muddier when it comes to the 21-24 year old workers. This is pretty much consisting of graduates and the independent adults from the 18-20 section, with some mature students thrown into the mix. This group has all the responsibilities as people 25+. If you have a person working in a shop that’s full time (I’ve classed this as 40 hours, but some companies differ) and 24, and another person that’s full time and 25, there shouldn’t be a £20 per week difference in their wage. The only reason they are being paid £20 more a week is because of their age. When you are doing something like retail, having 1 year more experience or being 1 year older doesn’t make a fucking difference. Being 24 as opposed to 25 doesn’t make your bills, your council tax, or your mortgage repayments (okay, with this government, this example is stretching it a bit far) any cheaper. It’s exactly the same financial responsibility as an 18 year old would have, so why do people 25 and older get placed on a minimum-wage significantly higher than people that have the same responsibilities financially? £2o may not seem like much per week, but it adds up to an extra £1,020 a year just for being a year older, which is just simply ridiculous. If you were working 40 hours a week at 18 years old, someone aged 25 and over would be earning £3,952 more a year from April. The exact same job, the exact same responsibilities, but your age (and the concept of experience, we mustn’t forget about that) means you earn nearly four grand less a year, because fuck you, 18-20 year olds – lots of love, George Osborne.

The Living wage issue doesn’t just affect people under 25, though. Seeing that 1 in 20 (or 5% of the population, roughly 3,250,000 people) are on minimum wage at the moment, and the suggestion of it increasing to 1 in 9 by 2020, people over 25 will more than likely find themselves too valuable for businesses to employ them. Significant amounts of high street companies hire 16-20 year olds already because of their lower wage cost, but increasing 25 y/o+ workers’ wages by 50p an hour (and steadily rising in the future) will just make the cheaper, more affordable teenagers even more worthwhile. Sure, they will earning more, but they will most certainly see doors close in the future because of their extra expense.

The living wage is being heralded as a “masterstroke“, but without other increases to the minimum wage for younger people, it’s quite simply adding another tier to the minimum wage and rebranding it as “living”. All it is doing is making a clear statement that people 25 and over apparently work harder than people under 25, and that they deserve to be paid more because of it. I’m sorry, George Osborne, but as someone that has suffered through the minimum wage tiers and austerity cuts, and not had a rich family to bail me out whenever I needed it, I know when I’m being served shit despite being told that it’s champagne.


BBC Radio Leicester Interview

Just a short update… Earlier today Claire and I were interviewed by Monica Winfield on BBC Radio Leicester as part of the Saturday breakfast show!

It was really fun (despite the early start), and we were talking about UniSlam, the writing community in Leicester, and spoken word nights. I’ll be posting a link later on so people can have a listen!

In regards to UniSlam, it’s being held at the University of Leicester tomorrow, people can come down to the preliminary rounds and semi finals for free, but the grand finals cost £5 on the door. I’m the coach for the team, so I won’t be performing, but the amount of talent in the team is actually incredible. For now, though, all we can do is practice and get ready for the big day tomorrow.

I’ll be posting updates on my twitter handle @thefakecoreyb and maybe on here too, so keep posted!


Happy New Year! 2016 Resolutions and saying goodbye to 2015.

The end of the year is finally upon us. 2015 has been a mixed year for the world, with terrorist attacks, Donald Trump, and a majority Conservative government putting a significant dampener on the whole thing.

For myself, it’s been pretty fun. I’ve graduated university with a 2:1 grade, had a load of fun adventures with people, and trying to settle into adult life for the first time. It’s been a good build-up, but I think there’s a long way to go, and that’s why I’m going to have some New Years resolutions, just to keep me in line and for something to work towards. These are in no particular order, but they shall be a list with explanations.

  1. Become vegetarian.
    This year, I’ve been gradually working towards vegetarianism, cutting meat out of my diet and either finding alternatives to replace it or having meals without any meat replacements. I’ve not cut it out completely yet, but by December 31st, 2016, I would like to be a full vegetarian. It’s because of a few reasons, mainly moral, but I won’t go into it.
  2. Move back to Leicester.
    Of course this had to make it, it’s my home from home, nearby a large portion of my friends, and the city I have spent the last three years, of which I love.
  3. Get a career-based job in a field I want to work in or begin a Masters degree in journalism.
    This is a bit vague and indecisive simply to be realistic. I would rather save up some money and get work in an English-based field before going back into education, just to get some professional experience on top of work experience and my education.
  4. Build up my journalism portfolio.
    Already under way with The Mixed Tape, but I am going to be getting heavily involved with Vulture Hound now that my hours are cut down again at work. I want to really get my journalist portfolio full of articles and getting my name out there.
  5. Travel to at least one different country.
    Seeing that I’ve not left the UK since 2011, I think it’s about time I visit somewhere different. It doesn’t matter where, as long as I travel to a different country, I’m happy.
  6. Lose some weight.
    This has been a constant one for the last few years, to little success. But I am wanting to get some weight lost purely for my health, and just feel a bit fitter and better about myself again.
  7. Improve my mental health.
    This is something new that I’ve not often spoken about before. For roughly 6-7 years, I’ve suffered from depression. For the first time in my life I’ve went beyond the basic counselling session and I’m currently going through CBT, or cognitive behavioural therapy, to help directly target my depression and help my brain function differently. I’m also taking anti-depressants alongside therapy, hoping that they will aid me too. Here’s to a (hopefully) happier 2016!
  8. Get some creative writing published.
    I’d absolutely love to get some poetry or a short story published in the near future. I’m sure I’ll be keeping you informed on here!
  9. Get some significant work on my novel done.
    The plan is there, and I’m a few thousand words in, but I’ve not been able to write as much, recently. I’m planning to get at least half of my novel written this year. This is here to make sure I do…
  10. Read more books.
    This is an important one. The ratio of books I own to books I’ve read is shockingly disproportionate. If there’s anything I need to do, it’s to get a lot of them into my “Read” pile, and out of my monstrous “To Be Read” pile.

So, that’s my 10. What resolutions do you have in mind? Feel free to comment them on my post! I hope you all have a Happy New Year!

– Corey


Writing projects in Cumbria, and the Borderlines Festival, Carlisle.

The books I bought at Borderlines Festival, Carlisle.

The books I bought at Borderlines Festival, Carlisle.

It’s been a while since my last blog post, my utmost apologies. I’ve been going through the motions of getting settled in Cumbria and joining the working world, so my blog posts have taken more of a hit than first expected.

In regards to writing, I am now writing for an online music journalism website called The Mixed Tape, which is very exciting! I’ve already reviewed a couple of things on there, so feel free to have a look to try and find me!

My creative writing projects have mainly been writing little bits when I can, but nothing huge. I’ve made a bit of progress with a novel idea thanks to a train journey last week, but other than that it’s mainly been poetry or small chunks of prose. It’s a habit I’m going to have to get back into, which is something I didn’t really want to do as a writer.

One fun thing I’ve done this month, however, was visit Carlisle for the Borderlines Festival on the 5th of September! I started the day at a Poetry Breakfast hosted by Malcolm Carson and John Lucas. It was a nice start to the day, sipping a cup of coffee surrounded by fellow poets. I even performed a couple of poems myself! It wasn’t the best place for it, however, because the Tullie House cafe had Museum guests enjoying a breakfast and having light conversation in the same room as the event. It would have been better in a smaller coffee shop that could let your voice carry a bit better, and even possibly have a microphone and speakers. It was still fun and I left with (another) poetry book for my book collection by John Lucas.

The next event was a lot more concerned with providing a guide for writers, as Marian Veevers (whose pen name is Anna Dean), where we looked at using local record offices for inspirations to crime novels. It was a lot of fun (after a few tech issues!) and the tasks were really interesting and insightful. Definitely something for me to consider when novel writing!

After lunch, I sat down to a talk by Tom Harper and Simon Toyne, who were talking about their latest novels (Black River and Solomon Creed, respectively) and how to write thrillers (without becoming Dan Brown). It was definitely my favourite event of the day, as they discussed fun stories, how to edit with fellow writers, the idea of using a location vs creating a location, and much more. I, again, left the event with a book. A signed first edition of Solomon Creed with some really lovely black trimmed pages. Definitely something I’m looking forward to reading!

The last event was listening to a book reading and talk by Katherine Norbury, who has recently released The Fish Ladder, which is part travelogue, part memoir, and was an interesting change in content from the other events.

The only problem, now, is that I have to wait until next year for the Borderlines festival to come back around (unless I go off on adventures to other reading and literary festivals in the future), but as a Borderlines Festival virgin, I was very much impressed.

I’ll be posting some updates about my writing in the near future, as well as typical rants and comment pieces more than likely working themselves onto here, too.


De Montfort University, I am disappointed.

I’m sure most of you are aware of the news hitting social media recently, but in case you haven’t, De Montfort University, my alma mater, has controversially made David Cameron a Companion of the University, the highest award that they could bestow upon the Prime Minister, for his involvement in legalising same-sex marriage. Given the Conservative Party’s very poor history with this generation of voters, among other reasons, you can understand why quite a lot of people were, for lack of a better phrase, ridiculously pissed off.

In all honesty, I’m not enraged or frothing at the mouth from the situation, I’m just disappointed. The behaviour shown by the university does not reflect its support of the LGBTQA+ community, nor the voice of its students, but reflects the Executive Board’s and, most importantly, Vice-Chancellor Dominic Shellard’s delusions of grandeur.

The notion that David Cameron ‘went against’ his party to pass the marriage equality act is a complete farce. The party, as well as Mr Cameron himself, didn’t have any intention of introducing same-sex marriage during the 2010 election, and was actually the Under Secretary for Equalities, Ex-Liberal Democrat MP Lynne Featherstone, who put forward the discussion for marriage equality and was the first politician to support the Out4Marriage campaign. David Cameron may have voted for and supported same-sex marriage after it started to become a political movement, but his record of voting has been anything but supportive to the LGBTQA+ community. Including his previous support of Section 28, an act which stopped schools “promoting homosexuality” that was introduced by Margaret Thatcher in 1988, he also voted in favour of an act which would ban homosexual couples from adopting, and voted in favour of banning lesbian couples from having IVF treatment as recently as 2008. As well as this, there is also the fact that the Tory government has passed questionable things in regards to the LGBTQA+ community, including cutting the funding for LGBT+ charities and Mr Cameron’s appointment of Caroline Dinenage as Equalities Minister, someone who voted AGAINST the marriage equality act.

I think De Montfort University are hiding their main reasoning for giving him this award. It’s not because of their respect for David Cameron’s support of same-sex marriage (which only seemed to appear in 2011 after years of being a supporter of “traditional family values”), but more so the fact that they could go to 10 Downing Street, show off their “liberal” side, and get their names in the papers. Their lack of consultation with the student body (where both the LGBT+ Society’s Chairperson, Tim Deves, and the university’s LGBTQ+ representative, Daniel Murgatroyd, weren’t informed) shows this, as no LGBTQA+ supporting student in their right mind would deem Mr Cameron worthy of this award.

I have stuck up for De Montfort University since I first arrived at their campus; their constant support of equality and LGBTQA+ rights and listening to their students’ concerns were two of the reasons why I loved studying there. This time, however, they have been nothing short of a disappointment, putting their bragging rights and one-upmanship over the ideals of its students, and the very community in which they so heavily support.

A.N – Please read and sign the DMU LGBT+ society’s petition!


Slam poetry and Poetry Is Dead Good

Been a while since I’ve posted on here, I’m currently stuck applying for jobs and trying to stay in Leicester, so I’ve been a bit preoccupied.

I went along to my first slam poetry night last week, and ended up doing an impromptu performance for the first time in a few months. It was a slam competition in the basement of The Exchange in Leicester, and ran by the organisers of Poetry Is Dead Good in Nottingham. The poets were beyond fantastic, and whilst I didn’t end up getting into the final in Nottingham next month, I have been invited to do my first set of poetry as a guest poet in the near future for one of their monthly spoken word nights, which is something I’m really excited for!

I will hopefully be able to post more information in the future, but for now it’s an exciting prospect and I can’t wait to get involved in such a fantastic poetry night.

For my writing, I’m working on a few poetry pieces mostly, just so I can get a collection together for the night. Other than that, I’m getting back into prose writing by planning and writing short stories to fit into my dystopian world that I started building when I studied Writing Place. It’s a nice change from course-related stuff, really.

Hopefully I will be adding to the blog in the near future, with content on my writing, as well as some discussions about writing, starting up a Leicester Writing Group, and some other fun* stuff.

*fun not guaranteed